Don't feel bad that you can't nurse. I tried it with Davey and Shea, got mastitis both times, the last time so bad that I had a 105 degree fever and my doctor told me to quit. With Jake, I was advised to not even attempt it.
I'm glad that that Kangaroo-ing worked for you...I used to sleep with both Shea and Davey like that when they were fussy. Jake was never a really fussy baby, but I still laid like that with him when he was small. I have pictures of Lonesome laying barechested on the couch with Jake....it's so cute!
Please try to eat, honey. It's important, because your body has been through a traumatic event and is trying to repair itself. You need nutrition to do that....
...let me know how it goes!