High Times, Hard Times

I Always Land On My Feet

Sorry for not writing the past week. I've just been so busy. I would like to get this out, If you think about it, please go to my cousins new blog and check it out. She's my best friend and I thought it might be nice of me to post her site address on here Link
um... I have no idea what to write. . . nothing at all.

As I sit here, my mind begins to wonder. I should be working on my new book. I should be doing this, I should be doing that, well. . . I haven't been doing the things I should be. And for this reason, I don't know if I should write tonight. Or at all for that matter. There are these moments when I think like this, and I smack myself and try to make sense of this life that I've seemed to screw up so badly. I don't know how to say this in words that make sense. I landed myself on a blog site today, and I saw that someone had me on their list of favorites, I almost cried. I called my cousin and went on and on about how cool I thought it was that someone added me to their favorites. I was like wow. anyways. . .

Its moments like those that make me want to continue to write, but its moments like these, that I want to quit. Like I said before, I don't quit. . . Writing blogs are so addictive, you get soo used to writing that you end up finding your self thinking about what your going to write about, hours before you actually write it. I used to be that way, now I think about what I'm going to write then push it aside because I get too busy. I just don't have any energy to write something thats not going to get read. Comments are uplifting, they make you want to write more. And thats why I like them. But when you don't get any comments, or just one here and there, it just doesn't encourage you, but I'll shut up about the comments.

Anyways. . . I don't know where I'm headed in the next week or so, I don't know If I'm going to continue this blog or not. I'm just tired of living life for every temporary high. Sooo. . . If I don't write in a while, I'm just thinking. I'm just pondering on this awful feeling that I'm having right now. Some would call this a writer's block, and others would say it just my blonde side coming out. Either way, I can't keep pushing myself to write something thats not going to make sense. I'll think about this tonight, and if you want me to continue writing, please let me know. All I need is a push in the right direction. There is a song I heard yesterday that says, Can't Hold Us Down. Well, that used to be my motto, well to an extent, it was Can't Hold Me Down. Now, I see a turning the the tide. Right now I can be held down, I'm being pinned down by all my feelings and I need to let them out.

Ashlee

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