My next door neighbour is a strange little man. He has never actually done anything to me, he is just strange. Sometimes he acknowledges my excistence and then other days he looks right through me. It just really depends on which way the wind is blowing. Sometimes he talks, sometimes he doesn't, sometimes he stares, sometimes he doesn't. He is just strange. He doesn't know me, and I don't know him. There are people who I see everyday, and I don't have a clue about any part of their life. I don't know if they are happy or sad, I don't know what their dreams are. I don't know how they take their coffee or even if they like coffee. I know nothing. Not surprising really if that is the milkman, or some guy that catches the same bus as me everyday. That's the way the world works. We can't know everything about everyone, but just how much do we know about those that are closest to us? Can we ever know everything about someone? Even someone we marry, and we spend everyday with them? Well the answer is no. We can't. You know why? Because we can't crawl into their heads and see what is going on. Which is probably a good thing.

A friend of mine went on holiday last week, and had a really bad time. They hated it. They were speaking to someone on that holiday who said they had holidayed at this place for the last four years, and planned to do so the year later. It is funny how we can all experience the same thing but take completely different things away from it. I can live with my family, and we can go through the same things, and we can just see them in completely different ways. I have known my sister for 23 years. We are pretty close, and we get on well. We talk almost on a daily basis. I could probably tell you her opinions on most things. I could probably tell you her worse fears. What her ambitions are. I could tell you alot, but I couldn't tell you it all. I couldn't tell you what she is thinking, and how she is feeling about certain things. I think we need that though, people need to have the ability to surprise us. If we knew it all where would the adventure be.

As most of you know, I am not married. I don't know if you reach that point with your partner where you think that you know everything about them. That somehow you have managed to crawl into their heads, and you are that connected to them that you do know everything. I just don't think that you can reach that point with anyone. We all have a history. Relationships with different people, where we behave differently to suit that particular relationship, and people will know us in different ways. Like I am not going to act the same with my partner as I do with my Mum. My work colleague will know me in a different way to how my sister does. People think that they know me really well and then I can surprise them. The magical thing is, we even have the ability to surprise ourselves. I don't even know myself 100% because I am always changing, and learning new things, and growing, so how the hell will someone else be able to know everything there is to know about me?

Now obviously not knowing someone well can be negative too. Especially if that is because people who we consider to be close to us, choose to lie to about certain aspects of their personality, or if they feel they can't trust us enough to be honest. These can lead to shocks about people down the line. I guess that is more about who we choose to trust and if they deserve it. It just makes you think about who does actually knows you best. Our parents would be a safe bet, but even at some point that goes into decline, and just how well do we know them? I am sure there are things about my parents that I will never know, and that is probably a good thing even if it is just to save my blushes! On the whole I am accepting of the fact that I can't know everything about people. I reckon about 80% will do me.