I see the bad moon arising.
I see trouble on the way.
I see earthquakes and lightnin.
I see bad times today.
Dont go around tonight,
Well, its bound to take your life,
Theres a bad moon on the rise.
-Creedence Clearwater Revival
I'm the kind of person who can see the good and bad in everything. More often than not, I chose to ignore the later, and focus more on the positive things in life. But it is a fight at times, yet I usually succeed.
But honestly, I'm drawn to people who've gone bad. I don't know if it's some perverse pleasure in seeing someone else suffer shit than myself, but I just adore those that storm against injustices, even if it is self-created, and I completely enjoy watching someone hit the boiling point. It kind of freaks me out that I like that sort of thing. Maybe it's because I attempt to be so self-controlled that I live vicariously through other people's blow ups.
I got into a loud shouting match with a neighbour over a barking dog in our apartment building. I don't really want to get into the details of the arguement, but what I still keep coming back to the point where I lost my cool. She goaded me into behaving the same way that she was reacting, and a few choice words and phrases were uttered in response to the situation. I'm glad that there was some space between us though, because I so wanted to just give her a quick shake or a smart slap upside the head.
The funny thing here was this: I'm over it now, but she's not. And it's amusing the hell out of me, because she's so damned vindictive. Already I've had a formal complaint made up about me for some bullshit reason, and she's been talking behind my back to anyone who will listen, and now the whole housing unit knows about what went down. She's making snide comments and wild accusations that would frustrate anyone, but as much as it's annoying, it's a hoot, too. And it would be so easy to keep the ball rolling, but for what? Toying with people like that is just a waste of time, no matter how simple. But the challenge is there, and she's making it so that any normal person would want to bring her down.
I don't get why people just keep holding their hand out for more, though. It's almost like she's got a Beat Me sign around her neck, and like she's offering for me to try to get her evicted. There's so much more going on than just a yappy dog, and I'm guessing that it would only take a couple of phonecalls before she was asked to vacate the premises. But, again, there's something about her crazy style at self-defense that's making me refrain from any further action.
Nuts, huh? I kinda dig the crazy girl even though she's just so fucked up.
