I'm trying to motivate myself to be happy and bubbly. Last night wasnt such a fiasco. I had dinner at a friend's house, we had bailey's, we catched up, we even laughed, and honestly even though i was really tired by 9.00pm, i had a good time.
But today i miss him a lot. It's fool's day, and i had plans to trick him with the 'i'm pregnant' joke. *sigh*
I just want to fall down, curl up and cry my eyes out.
And it's f**kin raining, which make matters even worse.
We're supposed to have a girls night out tonight, I wish it could be my usual Weekend with Darren. This is going to be the second weekend we're gonna be appart. I want to be with him so badly. Have a cosy dinner, cuddle up and enjoy a movie together, specially now that the wheather is getting colder.
I want to be with him.............................................................
