I used to complain about being down and feeling depressed. I would focus on the bad things in my life. And things that didnt affect me directly, well i'd convince myself they were making me sad.
Everyday i'd go to work with negative thoughts like i hate my job, and i'd have a list of upsetting things happening. And they would happen. I've realised that i was the one making tings happen, either good or bad.
So i'm trying to be more positive in how i think. When i have dark thoughts, i just brush them away with a good one. Like when i start to feel lonely, i enlist in my mind the people that have showed more than once that they care about me. And then i feel better. Everything is in my head. And i'm the one making myself sad or happy. I just need to decide what i want to be.
I have a lot of work on myself to do. I'm used to being sad cuz it so easy to go downhill. But, with a positive attitude i'm starting to feel less stressed and distressed by little troubles.
Things eventually will happen. If I believe that something will be, then it will. I have faith in God who watches over me, but i've understood that i'm the one helping myself. God's given me all the tools to be happy. All i need to do is use them.
