Well for the last well lets see.....about a year now I've been trying to find a guy friend to become more than just a friend. But obviously it's not going to work with me. I'm to the point where I give up on guys. I can't like one without one of my friends ever getting mad. It's always one person and most of the time more than one getting mad at me.
I'm fed up with it. I know I'm bitching right now, but leave me alone! I'm so tired of being picked on and having a bunch of bull being said to me and about me.
I used to say that one day my "prince charming" would come one day, and that all I would have to do is wait. Well I don't see it happening anymore just because when he does come, some other girl is bound to get pissed at me. I give up on that theory. I've tried getting close to a couple of guy friends, but it's no use. I'm either not what they want, or they find someone much prettier and much better than me. But I guess I can't really complain b/c of what Kendra is going through. It's more than likely that her problems are worse than mine.
Why am I bitching? Well I'm going to go ahead and say this even though most of you probably don't want to know, but more than likely it's because I'm pmsing right now. So yeah, I'm going to be very emotional, so please watch what you say towards me. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings by saying something I shouldn't. Usually I don't tend to get emotional, but I guess since so much stuff has been going on lately, it's all hitting me pretty hard. I have only myself to blame for it though. It's my own fault for getting into this and it's my fault for people getting mad and all that other shit. Mine, mine, mine! So yeah, go ahead and blame me. W/e I don't care. Grrrrr.....I can't even ask a freaking simple question anymore. Everyone else gets my answer before I even do. So what's the point in asking people things anymore if I'm not going to get the answer straight up and not from someone else, but from the person whom I asked. I really would like my answer to only be told to me, not the whole freaking world. Maybe it's a mistake to like every guy I've ever liked before. You think? I don't know. I'm just not pretty enough, lets face it. Any guy I end up liking always goes for the hot, sexy, thin girls. Maybe it's a big mistake to fall in love with those you care about the most. Can you tell me if I'm wrong.
I'm so sorry everyone............it's all my fault.
'Cause I've been housing all this doubt
and insecurities
And I've been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key.
And I've been dieing to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there's no way of knowing
Where to go, promise I'm going.
~carebear~