These are those days that I find myself blankly staring at the walls again. I dunno if I'd be happy to know that there's really nothing to feel pressure from - no projects, no deadlines, no demanding superiors...- well that sort. Just this morning, I followed some friend's advice that the best way to relax on a Manic Monday morning is to wash your face with warm water, apply some oatmeal mask, and read RD Living. Haha! I just did, and now I feel so revitalized, *chi* flowing freely through all the parts of my body.

By the way, I was once asked about a song that's beautifully written, it tears your heart. I couldn't think of that one song, but just as I was having lunch while listening to my MP3s, I found myself suddenly going *mot-mot* over Evanescence's My Immortal . I searched for the lyrics, and was amazed by the overshadowing anguish in the words arranged in one soul-shaking melody. Just to quote some friend, only in poetry can sadness be more beautiful. *sigh* Just wanna share the lyrics to you...

MY IMMORTAL
By Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating mind
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you screamed I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me


Oh, this sends shivers down my spine...