Ok well I really had to share this experience. Last night I woke up at 230am and couldn't get myself back to sleep so I went online and did the chat thing in one of the gay chat rooms.
A guy messaged me and we started to chat. Following is a transcript of the chat. I should warn you. I it is graphic and what is contained is a little shocking, even to me.
topcopkc: hey
phoenixboi: hi
topcopkc: how long u been knocked up
phoenixboi: how u mean knocked up?
topcopkc: poz
phoenixboi: 14 yrs since i was 18 u?
topcopkc: was just gifted
topcopkc: finally
phoenixboi: gifted?
topcopkc: got the poz seed
phoenixboi: u think its a gift?
topcopkc: im glad i dot it
phoenixboi: how come?
topcopkc: dont have to worryu about it anymore
phoenixboi: ok
topcopkc: let my ass go raw and cock
topcopkc: u pass it ?
phoenixboi: so now you got a few more to get..like
syphlyis, hep c, gonnoreah, clamydia,
genital warts, pnuemoccocal, ...
topcopkc: u had those?
phoenixboi: lol...no
phoenixboi: man.. let me tell you it aint all lets ride
free now
phoenixboi: your body will slowly die
topcopkc: yea when im old
phoenixboi: you will slowly become resistant to all
medications
topcopkc: and dont care
phoenixboi: and you will die a painful death
topcopkc: nah'
phoenixboi: thats sad man cause ure cute
topcopkc: they will have somethin
phoenixboi: you think?
topcopkc: thanks
topcopkc: do u bb?
phoenixboi: no man
phoenixboi: u then have the risk of superinfection
topcopkc: hot
phoenixboi: with another strain of HIV
topcopkc: so
phoenixboi: dont you care about yourself?
topcopkc: a better gifter
topcopkc: not really
topcopkc: im young
topcopkc: and cute
phoenixboi: so your now gonna go around passing
it on?
topcopkc: wanna have fun
topcopkc: yep
phoenixboi: will you tell people before you do?
topcopkc: yeaa
phoenixboi: ok
phoenixboi: thats really scary man
phoenixboi: believe me
topcopkc: what is
phoenixboi: you havent lived with this
phoenixboi: HIV isnt a bed of roses
topcopkc: i feel the same just like my gift bro
told me would happen
phoenixboi: i dont know what fantasy you have in
your mind
phoenixboi: well your gift bro needs to be charged
with manslaughter
topcopkc: im lookin for a hook up dude
phoenixboi: you have no idea what you have gotten
yourself into
phoenixboi: but believe me in time you will
topcopkc: hes pozzed 20 in chicago so far
phoenixboi: then he needs to be locked up
topcopkc: ive fooled with some of my bros
phoenixboi: let me tell you something
phoenixboi: a mate of mine
phoenixboi: became poz only a yr ago
phoenixboi: already he has to take meds
phoenixboi: he is experiencing huge side effects
phoenixboi: vomitting
phoenixboi: diareah
phoenixboi: liver trouble
phoenixboi: fatigue
phoenixboi: in one yr
topcopkc: was he chasin like i did?
phoenixboi: his t cells are below 200
phoenixboi: his viral load is over 100 000
topcopkc: mine is too
topcopkc: so
phoenixboi: so means your gonna die sooner
topcopkc: nah
topcopkc: im young
phoenixboi: you need to talk to someone
topcopkc: and cute
phoenixboi: young or old man your looks are gonna
make you survive
topcopkc: i talk to my gifter
phoenixboi: your gifter is talking shit to you
topcopkc: no hes not
phoenixboi: and is breaking the law
topcopkc: hes given me great sex
phoenixboi: i really feel sorry for you
phoenixboi: have you taken the meds yet?
topcopkc: hes lined me up with a lot of hot poz
dudes
topcopkc: nope
topcopkc: i was told not to so i can gift others
phoenixboi: u have no idea what your getting
yourself into
phoenixboi: omg
topcopkc: some really hot sex
phoenixboi: seriously man
phoenixboi: you wont be having sex when your ass
is shitting like a fountain
topcopkc: well it dont
phoenixboi: and your vomitting constantly
phoenixboi: and you cant even get out of bed
phoenixboi: when you get the flu and your
hospitalised
topcopkc: my gift bro said that only happens
with a select few
phoenixboi: when your tongue is coated in thick
white paste
phoenixboi: no it doesnt
phoenixboi: it happens if you dont look after your
body
topcopkc: hes been poz for 8 yrs and looks
great
phoenixboi: and if they are telling you not to take
meds then your not looking after yourself
phoenixboi: and they dont care a bout you
topcopkc: but i wanna be charged up
phoenixboi: chrged up with?
topcopkc: yes they do they have set me up with
some really hot poz dudes to breed me
phoenixboi: you really need to talk with a doctor
topcopkc: need to be fullly charged to poz z
dude
phoenixboi: and a counsellor
topcopkc: why?
topcopkc: im havin a good time
phoenixboi: it doesnt last forever
phoenixboi: seriously
topcopkc: nah
phoenixboi: you have no idea
phoenixboi: man i become poz when i was 18
phoenixboi: thats 14 yrs ago
phoenixboi: i know what im talking about
topcopkc: this weekend i get to watch my bro
gift a newbie
topcopkc: i dont believe u
phoenixboi: oh fuck
phoenixboi: why dont you believe me?
topcopkc: cause u are jealous that im havin
fun
phoenixboi: lol
phoenixboi: man i have my fun
phoenixboi: but i do it safely
topcopkc: no fun in condoms
topcopkc: i dont believe in them any more
topcopkc: i used to always use them
phoenixboi: you will remember this conversation
topcopkc: its a lot better not too
topcopkc: no i wont
topcopkc: why
topcopkc: try it raw man
phoenixboi: because you will
topcopkc: its a lot better
phoenixboi: when your hooked up to some iv
machine in the hospital
topcopkc: with 14 yrs u would be a great gift
dad
phoenixboi: i would never do to someone else
what was done to me
topcopkc: i was told that if i get more strains
that i could convert dudes easier
phoenixboi: and die faster
topcopkc: u would have a good strain to give
me
topcopkc: nah
topcopkc: would u hook up with me?
topcopkc: im built nice
topcopkc: work out
topcopkc: have a nice cock
phoenixboi: where are you?
topcopkc: actually have a very big cock
topcopkc: chicago
topcopkc: u can bb me
phoenixboi: do you have msn man?
topcopkc: yes
topcopkc: why
phoenixboi: its easier to chat on
topcopkc: i havent used it in forever
phoenixboi: how bout yahoo?
topcopkc: yes
topcopkc: its on
phoenixboi: do u use that?
topcopkc: yes
phoenixboi: kewl
phoenixboi: whats ure address on it?
Ok now at this point I got him to give me his yahoo address because I was thinking that this guy needs some serious help. When I got him to yahoo he chatted with me for a little while and then I think he was aware of what I was upto. and he apologised.
Yeah thats right he apologised! Saying to me that it was all role play and that he gets off on the shock factor that this produces!!! OMG! I was speachless, and called him a sicko. But what is sad is that this really does go on. People actually go out and seek other positive guys to make them positive.
We live in a very strange world.
