I love JU. It's like my diary. Except it's exposed to the internet. But i guess that's a choice. To share your writings is to share part of your life, your thoughts, your fears... and if you dont want the rest of the world to know about it, then dont write. Cuz even if you hide it or lock it somewhere a piece of paper will betray you one day.
I used to write a lot when i'd be angry at Darren: "he's a bastard, he treats me like shit, i hate him" stuff like that. And when we'd made up he would find the insignificant piece of trash under the bed when i'd be in the shower. I'd come out all ready and excited to go wherever we needed to go when i'd notice his sad expression and the sheet in his hands. *MERDE!!!*
But then again, i wonder if unconsiously i didnt mean for him to find it one day. For him to know the pain and anger he caused back then and to send him a hidden message: Look what you've done, never try again...
For some, writing lets them leave something to prosterity. I'm thinking about great authors. The ones i know are french: Proust, Rousseau, Voltaire, Dumas, Sartre.... There are too many to mention them all, and i confess i forgot more than half of them. But all in all, when they wrote it was to leave something for the future generations. A mark, to prove they were.
What would we do without writing? The world would be a mess, chaos, end of the world!! Okay i'm exaggerating, but so are the people who repeat a hearsay. When you repeat a story you've heard you somehow add your own sixpence, dont you? Of course you do. Thats why writing is so practical, it is unalterable, once its written its over, you can't change it. No wonder there are expressions like 'you cant write the future'. Without writing you dont have the security of a contract where all parties agree on something and once they sign they cant come back on it.
Without writing, how can we remember history?
Anyway, i guess i write because i want to meet people and i want to discover new opinions. I guess i write because when i find a person i agree with i feel less alone. I guess i write because well i just feel like typing on my keybord and ramble over anything and nothing like i am right now.
Heh i'm sure it doesnt make sense, does it? I write thus I am.
