I just mentioned on Texas Wahine's blog about formerly taking medication for anxiety and ocd. lol--i guess no one is perfect. I actually don't have textbook ocd..I'm a hypochondriac....which makes me both obsessive and compulsive. Hypochondria is the most paralyzing disorder ever. Every time you get an ache or a pain you think it's the end of the world. I have thought I've had every disease from full blown aids to stomach cancer. Once you think you have these illnesses you sit there and obsess over death and dying and all of the "what ifs"....basically your life goes on a complete tailspin. You loose all self control.
I have hurt so many people around me because of this disorder. Of course I also have to live with the reality when I really am sick. No one believes me. It's just hard to write down. I've actually never admitted to anyone besides people I'm close with that I have this problem.
I am currently taking no meds for this, which is both good and bad. I am able to recognize I have this problem and am able to crack jokes about it. Actually Hardin and I laugh about it quite frequently. Every time I have a small ache or pain, he keeps me in check. Thank God after three years and a half years I haven't scared him off.
So there....that's my real secret. I posted it under adult content because I still don't want to put it up all over the net.
