Well well well. What a frutstrating day. I find it amazing how when i am back on the quit how everything seems to go wrong. Today most of my problems were computer related, a bit of work frustration mixed in and damn if the urge to just move back to square one wasn't right there. my apologies to dan for the reprimand. I will be honest with myself. This is going ot be hard. And i have done it before and i hate it. The only analogy i can make is, quitting smoking is like being really really hungry. It is so easy to satisfy your craving when you are hungry. I have never worried much about dieting or weight, but i guess in the end it is similar. Tonight i was out with my wife and some friends. We were at a restaurant where we had to wait for our table in the bar for about an hour. Of course everyone there was smokiing. at that point it was like being hungry but standing beside a buffet line. I gave up and had 1 cigarette. Failure. yes. so tomorrow is starting over. Day one the quit all over again.

But you know what? it is an adventure. I have beat it before, and this time i am keeping a reminder to myself so that i don't do this to myself again.

thanks for the comments - this ride will continue