Ever since being attacked and nearly beaten to death a couple of weeks ago, I guess I have been pretty depressed. Last night it reached it's low ebb and I was feeling pretty miserable. When I awoke this morning I made a decision to get over it and move on with my life. My body will heal in it's own time, and I need to kick myself and get my outlook right.
I had a great experience a couple of days ago, and just thinking about it helps to lift my spirits. As a crossdresser, I have pretty much kept that part of my life in the closet except with my sister crossdressers. We have our own forum and communicate through that and instant messaging. But, this is not quite the same as a close friend even though many of us have grown quite close ourselves. We are sisters after all.
I have a very dear friend who I have been wanting to come out to for some time but just hadn't decided the best way to do so. Indeed, I wasn't even sure if I should. I value her friendship greatly and was concerned about losing that. I decided that she was an open minded enough person, and a kind hearted enough person to risk it. We were talking and I casually brought up a thread in which I was involved in our crossdressing forum without actually mentioning that it was a crossdressing forum.
She said it sounded interesting and would like to read it. Well, I gave her the address for the forum so she could read the thread. Not only was she non-judgemental about it, but she actually thanked me for trusting her enough to share it with her. I was amazed. She even joined our forum as a supportive GG (Genetic Girl). I was so touched by the wonderful post she made there to all the girls. She is now one of a scant few (about 6 I think) GGs on our forum.
We have been talking a great deal since then and our conversations have become so much more meaningful than before. We have grown closer than ever. It is so nice to have a close friend in whom to confide the most personal things, as well as the trivial things, in life without having to weigh and mince words in fear of giving away a secret and risking prejudice and hateful response. Right now she is the only person in the world who knows me by both my male and my femme personas, and she accepts me just the way I am.
And I love her dearly for it.
