I'm hoping Po' sees more success than he has in the past. At least they're trying..
'Trying'???????
Sigh.
I called them when the stuttering started. I 'stuttered' the problem to a 'nurse practitioner' who put me on hold to relay it to the doctor. She then told me told me to come by (it was 4:15pm) to get a 'free' sample of lyrica. I got there at 5:55. The sample was a 'card' for a free sample. I get to the pharmacy. They can't fill it because there is no perscription to go with it. I call the now 'closed' doctors office. The answering service listens to me stutter out the problem. They say the will have the doctor on call contact me. 20 minutes later MY doc calls. The one who has been giving me the shots every three months for three years and perscribed vicodin, oxycontin, toradol, avinza, and neurontin...and now lyrica.
'What's the problem?'
stutter stutter
"Excuse me..have you always had this stutter?"
stutter stutter stutter
"I see. And what are you taking again?"
stutter
"How many times a day?"
stutter
"Are you taking anything else?"
stutter = 'No, because you told me NOT to. That the other meds you had me on were not for my pain"
"Oh. Well, you should take them if you're in pain."
stutter
"Well, I'm in my car. Stop the neurontin.."
stutter stutter
"You shouldn't stop it cold turkey, you're right. But that stutter isn't good."
stutter
"I will phone the lyricas in to the pharmacy in the morning."
stutter
I get the lyrica the next day. I take it that night. I don't sleep. All the pain is back. And now there is new pain. The doc's office calls. Tammy, the N.P. wants me to come in a week from yesterday.
I go in. The stutter is gone. The pain is back and surreal. Tammy comes in. "How are you?"
"I've lost 20 pounds in the past week. All I want to do is sleep. I hurt.."
"Where?"
"Look at the little pictures you had me mark."
"There are X's every where>"
"Right. I also ran two red lights yesterday and I can't sleep or concentrate."
"Maybe we need to double the dose on the lyrica'"
"I can't. I won't. I can't."
"Well, you're chart says you had your last shot in January. Maybe it's time..."
"April. I had it in April."
Waving the page in my face. "It says here it was January."
"April."
She leaves and the doctor comes in. Wearing his lead apron cause he has the conveyor belt of pain going today. We go over it all again. Tammy comes back.
"I need pain meds that work. I have a friend who tried this patch..."
"No."
Tammy says, again, it's been since January...I say April. The doc confirms April. Tammy waves the chart at him. Tammy must die.
I ask about an implant that 2..TWO people I know have had success with. Now, I am alreay being told I am too young for surgery. After my last visit in April, when I was told this again, it occured to me...I have 20 MORE YEARS of this shit to look forward to.
The doc says...of the implant..."It's not a cure. You could never get another MRI once it's in. AND...to be blunt, it costs $20,000 and the insurance company will never approve it until you have tried everything else....
wait for it....
including surgery..which you are too young to have"
"I see. So what do I do about this pain I am in."
"Tell you what.." he looks at Tammy..."Let's get him in here next week." Turns to me "And we'll do a double nerve block."
I bite my tongue to keep the tears from rolling out my eyeballs. The thought of the needles...the 'bee stings'..now there will be multiple...and then the cramps and aches as he injects me and I feel it in my groin, legs, toes..the pressure..all doubled this time. Not being ablke to walk for two days because it will all hurt and ache and not want to move..all doubled. He also adds that he will start me on topomax and tramidol..one for the pain and one for the headaches. He leaves with Tammy. A minute later someone new comes in with my instructions for the double nerve block. As she reads them, Tammy comes back with the headache script. I ask 'What about the pain medicine?"
"This is for pain."
"No, this is for the migraines."
"It's for both."
"No, he said one for the headaches and one for the pain."
"Have you ever tried something or other"
"What is that?"
"It's for depression."
"No."
"Have you taken anything for depression?"
"No."
"Never?"
"No"
"Maybe.."
"No. You see, the last doctor that went that route said there was nothing wrong with me. A month later I was having an emergency spinal fusion when I became suddenly paralized TWICE from the waist down.. A year later, a second doctor ..a pain management doctor said there was nothing wrong with me. When I begged for a mylogram he rolled his eyes and said fine but it will show nothing and I will be on anti-depressants."
"What happened with that?"
"It showed severe stinosis at the other end of my spine and he rolled his eyes and sent me here where I have been coming for the past three years to get nerve blocks and epidorals. So do not try to give me anti depressants. Get rid of my pain and I won't be depresed."
"I will have the doctor phone something in before he goes."
"Thank you"