OK, I was reading my first article and intro and realized many people dont know what BPD is. I will enlighten. BPD stands for Borderline Personality Disorder. The name is SOOOO misleading though I really wish the name could be changed. It DOESN'T mean one has another personality, no no! But the name that it has been given makes it appear as IF it does mean exactly that. What it does mean, along with alot of other things and symptoms of the disorder, is that we live among our emotions. Emotions control us from one moment to the next. Now many people can say I do that or I know someone like that however there are other criteria to meet. Living in ones emotions means the persons emotions CHANGE really quickly, often times in front of ones own eyes. It can be subtle or drastic and whatever the emotion we feel at that moment it consumes us. We have no control over sadness, it is an overwhelming intense sadness. The same for happiness or any other emotion. BPD almost always is escorted with an addiction of one or more things ie; Drugs, Alcohol, Shopping, Sex. Many BPD sufferers have a low functioning ability, making living in any normal circumstance impossible. Example, one cant keep a job. If the sufferer wakes up and feels depressed its not just an average "blue" feeling the BPD wants to die. If he wakes up angry it is almost impossible to deal with the BPD that is low functioning. This makes working with them un-bearable and them un-stable to work.
Me, well I am at the high end of functioning. I do take anti-depressants, but thats it, and no addictive drugs because we have addictive personalities so I really try to avoid that as much as I can possible do so. There is NO cure. Only till recently has there been made any progress with this disorder. Mostly we are just written off as too difficult to deal with.
My addictions: SHOPPING! However I do have very little debt. SEX! I dont even know what to say on that one. Sex is so important to me. I cant even begin to relate the intesity of feelings that sex gives me. Its a high, a drug. And I think there is nothing better.
I am a bi-sexual woman. Right now my main involvement is in a inter-racial relationship. He is black and I am white. I have been with this man now for 2 years. The racial thing doesnt cause problems for us, but we do live in the deep South, and it seems to create problems for other people. CIGARETTES! I love to smoke and in fact most BPD people smoke! Right now I am suffering trying to quit but I dont know if I'm going to make it today!
Then there is Risky behaviors and Inappropriate behaviors. Risky is like speeding, often in any kind of weather. Not slowing down in rain, running red and yellow lights, going 70mph in a 30. Risky as in un-protected sex. Putting ones self in dangerous positions. Inappropriate meaning over reacting to situations that most consider everday annoyances, often leads to violent outbursts. Now thats just a basic over view of what BPD is. And you all are getting the BAD stuff first. However there is so much more than that and stuff that is really really good!~ I think next time I write ,I will about the good stuff.
