I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about wether or not people who commit suicide are condemed to hell or purgatory or whatever the hell that the bible says. A few years ago I would say neither because I didn't believe in god, heaven, hell, satan,souls, ghosts, or any of that. I still don't know exactly what I belive in, but I hope to one day figure all that out. A few months ago someone close to me killed themselves at the age of 13. Then this week my upstairs neighbor killed himself the same way. It just brought back all the pain I felt when Megan died. Not having the comfort of a true belief in anything has really made this hard for me. I have been hearing a lot of my neighbors talking about when you kill yourself your "soul" suffers for eternity. This man lost his wife of almost 40 years a while back. He left in his suicide note that he couldn't deal with life without her and wanted to be with her again. Basically he died when she did it just took 10 years. I hope that if there is a god that he wouldn't punish a man for loving someone and dieing of a broken heart. Albeit a bullet took his physical life, losing her truly is what killed him. Whatever the bible does say, I hope Jack is up there with her because he was one of the rare "good person"s that you meet in life.
