I'm sitting here after a day of a lot of activity. Starting around noon I partook in some Malibu and Gatorade (darn good drink if I say so myself)... around 7 or so my roomies showed up and decided that we should all go work out. So me, drunk as all be went with em to the gym.
Lets just say that right now there isn't a part of my body that isn't sore beyond all recogning. Also my lungs are abjecting to such rough treatment.
I quit smoking about 5 months ago. A good thing by all means don't get me wrong.. but I still miss it. I miss having a cig in my hands and taking a drag from it. I miss the nicotine high basically.
What I'm wondering is just how long will it take for my lungs to heal? Are they already healed and just not strong from my lack of working them? Or are they sorely deprived and pissed at me for doing any type of cardio workout?
I also wonder what makes cig's so.. well addictive... I hated smoking... I hate thinking of smoking.. yet I still do want to smoke... It's not the gunk that it puts in my lungs that I miss.. I think it's just the act that I miss. The pull off the cigarette, the having one in hand, blowing smoke rings, and all that jazz. Yet even after going through it, and knowing how crappy my lungs felt, I still think of smoking again.
It's plain addictive.. It's a horrible habit, that I congratulate myself everyday for quiting. I'm healthier now... at least when I'm not working out. I don't wake up every morning coughing my lungs out because of all the smoke that I've put into them. I don't have to go outside every hour or so to smoke one just to stay 'mellow'.
It's a bad habit, one I intend to never do again. Yet I wish I could tell every kid my experience.. of how they've made my lungs feel like plain shit. How I'd get irritated and turned into a gremlin if I didn't have any. I made the mistake once of lighting up a square to smoke... and now because of that experience I'm tortured everytime I go to a gas station and see them on sale, or walk down a sidewalk and see someone smoking one. I'm soo tempted many times to ask to bum one off someone. I know I won't though. I'm happy that I quit, I'm glad with the changes quitting has done for my mentallity and my physical self.
*grabs a megaphone* KIDS DON'T EVER START!!!*/ends magaphone sequence*
