I notice that the world slides off on a tangent. It could be that I haven’t slept or it could be that a new celestial body is exerting a massive gravitational pull on our meek little 3rd rock.
I am leaning towards the former, because this is one fact I can be sure about, while the later is mere conjecture. But facts are getting kinda blurry…kinda fuzzy…I don’t know.
My family keep on telling me that I have been “abusing” them in someway. They can’t give me a timeframe, and I sure as hell can’t give myself one, and the weekend is starting to bleed in, even though this is Tuesday. Sure, it’s late Tuesday, but I did some damage and my somehow-related-tribe thinks so to.
I’m starting to notice that angle again. A bit less than 30 degrees but more than 15. I feel sick and euphoric. I can’t help but stay up and dream a life of responsibility which I will have to wake up to tomorrow even though I would not have slept.
Does this make sense?
Why is it that the longer I stay up the quicker the news comes? An explosion a second, a scientific miracle a day and if I stay awake long enough I might just see immortality. The columns and journalists keep on running. How many could there be? Do they breed…..are there clones? Just wait awhile. Keep your eyes open long enough for immortality. It’s a’comin.
The way my throat’s feeling I don’t think so. And the way my eyes are seeing I don’t pray so.
The body is not meant to… not designed to…smoke so many cigarettes in a day. How many packets? I keep changing my pants, so I don’t know. Do I have pants on? Maybe?
The body isn’t meant to change channels so fast. I’m not even watching the TV but I keep on finding books in my hand and I think I found uni in my hands today as well, but that could have been me in its hands. I think I might have fallen asleep in class. I hope I didn’t drool. I hope I wasn’t dreaming about the girl next to me.
Dear GOD.
Did I go to Uni today? IF I could only find out if I learned anything. Was there a bus involved? No. A car! F$$K! I drove. Bad idea.
Abuse of family.
Not knowing where I am.
I learned how to calculate a standard deviation and about Cindy Sherman. I have an article somewhere. Just can’t remember if it exists.
