*sighs*
*Mutters, "Here we go again."*
Okay, this is the last time I am going to bother with this. If you believe me, or not...I don't care anymore. I'm doing this not for you LW, but for other folks. Maybe they care, maybe not...I don't know. Most of all, I am doing for myself. To know i tried, and that I *AM* changed...
Yes, I have. No, I did not state that i started *this* year. I started in the fall of 2005. (You with me so far?) I've been there one year so far. I'm not going part time anymore, I am going full time. In fact, this fall term alone...I'm doing 22 credit hours. I should, I hope...cause that is what i talked with the folks at school about, graduat june of 2007. Maybe I won't, but as of right now...i will.
(Did you catch all of that?)
Now, the gf. Yes, she is real. Yes, I do love her. She is most definantly not a fantasy. It does seem, for me at times, to be like a dream, in how she feels about me, how i feel about her, etc...
*shrugs*
Be my guest, lead the charge. I'm done. I'm beyond done.
I have something going for me in life, and as god is my witness, I'm not going to let anyone mess it up. I've changed, and I am changing. I'm becoming a better person, I am a better person.
All I did was fuck up, badly. I was foolish then, and was ignorant (among other things) to what i was doing. You could've said i was blind to it. Now, I'm not blind. My eyes are open.
MM/Elie, I apologize prfoundly for hijacking this. I'm done with it now. If you want to blacklist me for hijack, or such. No worries, I understand.
Best of luck in life.
~S/P
