I'm the type of person who needs to learn the hard way. I get the same message drilled into my head over and over, but I still doubt its validity. So I go out on a limb, get shot down, and I'm back where I started. It's an interesting cycle, and I hope someday I'll learn to just take Him at His word, and not try to put exceptions on it or test it out myself. I'm such a teenager...
In a way, it was a good thing. It really brought me back from my day dreams and into reality. It helped me realize maybe God's plan is better than my own after all. It'll just require a whole lot more patience, and a whole lot more focus upward rather than side to side.
I always saw growing up in a Christian home, preacher's granddaughter and all, as a disadvantage. I never was able to experience true adolescence. My faith was all I knew. I've always had this slight desire in me to venture away from it. Just to see what "the other side" is like. Because they all seem like they're having a good time. I think that whole "the grass is always greener on the other side" saying applies here.
But tonight I was gently reminded that if I keep my focus on God, and not what other people say and do around me, I'll be alright. God's plan has to be far better than anything I can come up with.
I know I'll most likely need to learn this lesson over AGAIN about a month from now, but for now, I only want to be content where I am, doing my best to follow in His footsteps.
